I admit I’ve let myself go since finding out about his sex addiction

Yep, I’ve given up.  I cannot possibly look as good as the airbrushed models, porn stars and I definately can’t compete with Bob’s fantasies.

So here’s the thing…I’ve

• stopped shaving my legs and my “bits” ( i am shaving airpits since it’s summer)
• i don’t care what i eat
• I am wearing PJs all the time
• most days I don’t even wear make-up or do my hair (I do shower)

These may be signs of depression, but I genuinely believe that it’s because I’ve stopped competing with fantasy.  I’m a real woman.  I’m attractive, trendy and smart – I have feelings.  I am not a porn star nor do I ever aspire to be one.  I am not airbrushed nor so I have my own hair, lighting and make-up expert for touch-ups all day and night long.  I’m me.  Simply me.

If he doesn’t like me for me…than that’s his problem.  Go find the fantasy.  You tried that with Lisa and granted she had big boobs, and a plain face – she was human too.  You cybersexed with anyone who would till you saw pics or video of them and they weren’t perfect.  So, Bob so your best if you will keep looking…If there’s been thousands of women you’ve contacted and haven’t found her yet…keep looking…maybe you’ll find her.  Till she has needs and your fantasy will be quashed.