Moving in a Few Weeks – fences

I love the way we are when we’re together and loathe the way we are when we’re apart. I loathe the baggage – and more specifically, I loathe the way I feel when I’mwith him. I don’t feel sexy, wanted, like a woman – I am his Mother, his roomate, his glue. I need to look after me now. Get well and lose the emotional baggage – and now I have a ton. Trying to imagine not be jealous, not looking for those “SA signs”, wondering if I’ll be bored without the intense drama that’s wrapped my psyche for what seems like 30 years (only 1.5 years).

Permission to be confused

I went to one on one therapy last week. My brain is driving me nuts..what should I do? Why am I so weak? Why would I want my friends to leave their partners if they were in this situation and yet I can’t? Am I making a mistake leaving? Are my expectations too high (sex addiction aside)? Why was I attracted to a sex addict? How did I not know? How will I know the next time? Will my jealousy always be like this? How will I ever trust? Why am I still so confused?

One Year with Sex Addict

One year after sex addiction…

My 2 year anniversary with a sex addict…

As I was just telling a friend of mine…it’s mine and Bob’s 2 year anniversary coming up next week.  Normally I buy him pretty good gifts for occassions.  This year he’s getting nothing…nada…squat.  i reminded him last night that it will be two years and he says we’ll have to do something great.  I wonder [...]

What’s in it for me? His sex addiction and our relationship…

Having a day today where I look at my life and wonder how it will be enhanced by staying with Bob.  Bob is a great guy, the “little porn man” is a jerk.
Do I want to sit here for the rest of my life wondering if he’s really running errands?  Do I want to play [...]

Great post by wife of a pornography addict…

While trying to find others who are going through this I came across a great post written by a woman who has been married for four years.  While there is a bit of religion in the post you can see the anger, the hurt and feeling out of control for her husband’s pornography addiction.  It’s [...]